It's been an excruciating boring Sunday I might add. But I had long hours spent alone to sit, think and picture everything on the past and present and future. Not the most joyable thing to do but I guess sometimes when we actually do solemn to ourselves at a point in our life, it is rather amazing to see how things evolves.
I've been torturing myself, mentally. For this past months, I've gone through so many unexpected events. Not knowing how the future might be. I struggled to a point of breakdown and losing insanity. Falling sick every week, and even starve myself because I had lost every inch of appetite. It's crazy to be in this alone and come to think of it, I wasn't struggling alone, I was indirectly and uncautiously making those who were by my side to struggle along with me.
Did I change in a way or other? Or have I just gone bad to worse?
I quit clubbing. Quit drinking. And I'm trying to quit smoking as well. Quit modeling. Quit photoshoots. Quit freelance jobs. I practically quit what I did in my past.
I even threw my skimpy clothings during my modeling days. I'm learning to dress more decent. Less makeup.
Am I trying to be a better person? Portray a better image? I want to be better. That's for sure. But I'm beginning to realize, I'm getting quieter by the day.
But all I want is to be happy.
And I know, happiness come when we least expect it to happen.
And thanks to YOU, I know where I am. And know that I'm building every inch of bricks back.
Sunday, 12 July 2009
Wednesday, 8 July 2009
Jah...
What should I write about? I'm surprised that I can't think of anything right now.. Sheesh.
Hmm...
*10 minutes later*
........
I gotta get up early tomorrow. Yawn. At this rate of waking up at 5.45am to go to work is really killing my appetite again. Right after I got so used to working the 12pm-9pm shift.
I was blog hopping just awhile ago. Fooling around in Facebook. Scratching my backside. Digging my nose and thinking back what did I buy at Watsons that cost me RM60 bucks.
*peeks into the shopping bag*
Pad? Panty liner? Lip balm? Vitamins? Mint? Pocket tissue? MAHAI...! All this cost me RM60..?? I'd just probably go the supermarket next time. Definitely much cheaper there.
Okay. I'm feeling the drowsiness from the painkillers.
I'll write something more read-able next time. Ta~
Hmm...
*10 minutes later*
........
I gotta get up early tomorrow. Yawn. At this rate of waking up at 5.45am to go to work is really killing my appetite again. Right after I got so used to working the 12pm-9pm shift.
I was blog hopping just awhile ago. Fooling around in Facebook. Scratching my backside. Digging my nose and thinking back what did I buy at Watsons that cost me RM60 bucks.
*peeks into the shopping bag*
Pad? Panty liner? Lip balm? Vitamins? Mint? Pocket tissue? MAHAI...! All this cost me RM60..?? I'd just probably go the supermarket next time. Definitely much cheaper there.
Okay. I'm feeling the drowsiness from the painkillers.
I'll write something more read-able next time. Ta~
Sunday, 5 July 2009
It's that +1 season again
Much to my surprise, another year has come and gone. And I meant adding another year to my age. Since I was small, I never once missed celebrating my birthday. Even if it was with my family or friends, it is celebrated one way or another. At home, a fancy restaurant, at a club...
And not too mention, the last couple of years, I celebrated my birthday and burned a hole in my pocket. If I'm not mistaken, I spent almost RM700 on my 21st birthday and last year, a whopping number almost reached RM1k.
But this year, it's another 10 days more to my big day and I'm not planning anything. Seriously. Those who has known me for years will be expecting me to be going ga-ga about deciding what to do. Not this time. I'm planning to have a quiet birthday this year and not spending a bomb in the club. I'm thinking about a short vacation by the beach or something. Somewhere nearby. Mum was asking me.. "Steamboat at home..?" And I told her, "Well, maybe not. I'd probably go for a short holiday". Instead of spending money opening endless bottles in the club, I might as well spend it on me this time round. =) We'll see...
And not too mention, the last couple of years, I celebrated my birthday and burned a hole in my pocket. If I'm not mistaken, I spent almost RM700 on my 21st birthday and last year, a whopping number almost reached RM1k.
But this year, it's another 10 days more to my big day and I'm not planning anything. Seriously. Those who has known me for years will be expecting me to be going ga-ga about deciding what to do. Not this time. I'm planning to have a quiet birthday this year and not spending a bomb in the club. I'm thinking about a short vacation by the beach or something. Somewhere nearby. Mum was asking me.. "Steamboat at home..?" And I told her, "Well, maybe not. I'd probably go for a short holiday". Instead of spending money opening endless bottles in the club, I might as well spend it on me this time round. =) We'll see...
xx--------------------------------------xx
By the way, have you read my recent post about my job? Did you rather find that entertaining? I have another story to tell. Here goes...
If I'm not wrong, this happened when I was on the 12pm-9pm shift. Calls were going alright... right until it was almost 8.30pm when my shift was about to finish. This man... I'd say late 40's in his age? He called and ask me to check on a booking. When I got to his booking, it was for like 60 passengers on one single booking. Normally, we're not allowed to touch those kind of booking. Because for a large group to make on a single booking, they are suppose to call to another department.
Here goes the conversation (a short-editted conversation that I can still recall) :
**Let's just put the name of the man as Mr. X**
Mr. X : I have a booking for 60 pax and "YOU" cancelled my flight! *angry*
Me : Mr. X, can you please rephrase what you've just said. I can see it's a booking for 60 pax and you will need to call the group booking instead and plus, it wasn't "ME" who cancelled your flight. *annoyed*
Mr. X : I don't care who cancelled it, but it is cancelled!
Me : Yes, I can see that.
Mr. X : Can you just transfer the call to somebody whom I can speak with regarding about this.
Me : No, I can't transfer your call.
Mr. X : ...................................................................... *he kept on babbling on God-knows-what*
--- the conversation went on and on and on till this part right here
Mr. X : Can you just put me through to somebody because I DON'T THINK YOU UNDERSTAND ENGLISH.
Me : Excuse me, if you think I don't understand English, what language do you suppose we're communicating now???
Mr. X : *silence*... Errrrrr..... *long pause*.....
Me : Riiiight... *bloody smack in the face*
OMFG can die dot com.
If I'm not wrong, this happened when I was on the 12pm-9pm shift. Calls were going alright... right until it was almost 8.30pm when my shift was about to finish. This man... I'd say late 40's in his age? He called and ask me to check on a booking. When I got to his booking, it was for like 60 passengers on one single booking. Normally, we're not allowed to touch those kind of booking. Because for a large group to make on a single booking, they are suppose to call to another department.
Here goes the conversation (a short-editted conversation that I can still recall) :
**Let's just put the name of the man as Mr. X**
Mr. X : I have a booking for 60 pax and "YOU" cancelled my flight! *angry*
Me : Mr. X, can you please rephrase what you've just said. I can see it's a booking for 60 pax and you will need to call the group booking instead and plus, it wasn't "ME" who cancelled your flight. *annoyed*
Mr. X : I don't care who cancelled it, but it is cancelled!
Me : Yes, I can see that.
Mr. X : Can you just transfer the call to somebody whom I can speak with regarding about this.
Me : No, I can't transfer your call.
Mr. X : ...................................................................... *he kept on babbling on God-knows-what*
--- the conversation went on and on and on till this part right here
Mr. X : Can you just put me through to somebody because I DON'T THINK YOU UNDERSTAND ENGLISH.
Me : Excuse me, if you think I don't understand English, what language do you suppose we're communicating now???
Mr. X : *silence*... Errrrrr..... *long pause*.....
Me : Riiiight... *bloody smack in the face*
OMFG can die dot com.
Wednesday, 1 July 2009
Bloody Update...
I'm finally back alive and kicking. After a month long of separating myself and my laptop, I suddenly got so used to the idea of not being online, not checking Facebook, not updating my blog, not spamming in Twitter. Just busied myself with going to work and going out with my friends and not drowned myself in the virtual world.
As many of you know, I've landed the job at a call centre at Salmat Salesforce and currently under contract with Jetstar Airlines as a client. And talking all day long with mainly people from Australia has been a real bummer. Having to listen to their aussie accent, and after 2 freaking months being alive there, I can bloody fake my accent during on call and is fucking annoying. And whenever we answer calls, we have to start the call by using a script which is "Welcome to Jetstar, this is Jen speaking, how may I help you?" Problem is, I can't use my name Jen Ai, because whenever I introduce myself, even to local people.. they'll be like.. "Jena.. Jen..Jen what..??". Imagine saying my name over the phone. The first few days, I used my name Jen Ai when I'm on call, and I've been given so many names in return...
Situation #1
Me : Welcome to Jetstar, this is Jen Ai speaking, how may I help you?
Passenger : Oh hi! Jena is it?
Me : No no, it's Jen Ai..
Passenger : Hi Jena!
Me : No.. it's J-E-N-A-I.. Jennnnn.... Aiiiiii...!!
Passenger : Ok Jena... I need to enquire..... *blablabla*
Me : *warrafakkk*
And the next week, I've decided to cut my name short, and just use Jen during calls. And this is what happens.
Situation #2
Me : Welcome to Jetstar, this is Jen speaking, how may I help you?
Passenger : Hi Jane...
Me : No, it's Jen.
Passenger : Oh sorry Jane...
Me : *wah lan nehhhh... omgwtfbbq*
So yea... you tell me how??? Bloody simple name also can give me another name. I've been given name like Jen Si by Singaporeans, Janice.... Jean.... *Wow. I have fucking multi identities*
So.. yea... I've got fucking alot of things, funny things and shit experiences while working here. And I can say it's a mixture of fun and stress. And main point to have in mind is... Do not take all the calls personal. This people can be rude. Rude to the extend they don't give who the fuck you are. And they can tell you that this is not personal they know you're just doing your job, but they can fuck you upside down on the phone. Oh btw, 4:10 of the ratio hates Malaysians. =)
Tell you more stories the next time! Here is my office! It's big, colorful, theme is given seasonally.
Yea. Looks like a happy place to work? Judging by the outlooks can be deceiving. =P
Anyone of you is interested in working? We still have vacancies!
I'm done chattering.
Need sleep.
As many of you know, I've landed the job at a call centre at Salmat Salesforce and currently under contract with Jetstar Airlines as a client. And talking all day long with mainly people from Australia has been a real bummer. Having to listen to their aussie accent, and after 2 freaking months being alive there, I can bloody fake my accent during on call and is fucking annoying. And whenever we answer calls, we have to start the call by using a script which is "Welcome to Jetstar, this is Jen speaking, how may I help you?" Problem is, I can't use my name Jen Ai, because whenever I introduce myself, even to local people.. they'll be like.. "Jena.. Jen..Jen what..??". Imagine saying my name over the phone. The first few days, I used my name Jen Ai when I'm on call, and I've been given so many names in return...
Situation #1
Me : Welcome to Jetstar, this is Jen Ai speaking, how may I help you?
Passenger : Oh hi! Jena is it?
Me : No no, it's Jen Ai..
Passenger : Hi Jena!
Me : No.. it's J-E-N-A-I.. Jennnnn.... Aiiiiii...!!
Passenger : Ok Jena... I need to enquire..... *blablabla*
Me : *warrafakkk*
And the next week, I've decided to cut my name short, and just use Jen during calls. And this is what happens.
Situation #2
Me : Welcome to Jetstar, this is Jen speaking, how may I help you?
Passenger : Hi Jane...
Me : No, it's Jen.
Passenger : Oh sorry Jane...
Me : *wah lan nehhhh... omgwtfbbq*
So yea... you tell me how??? Bloody simple name also can give me another name. I've been given name like Jen Si by Singaporeans, Janice.... Jean.... *Wow. I have fucking multi identities*
So.. yea... I've got fucking alot of things, funny things and shit experiences while working here. And I can say it's a mixture of fun and stress. And main point to have in mind is... Do not take all the calls personal. This people can be rude. Rude to the extend they don't give who the fuck you are. And they can tell you that this is not personal they know you're just doing your job, but they can fuck you upside down on the phone. Oh btw, 4:10 of the ratio hates Malaysians. =)
Tell you more stories the next time! Here is my office! It's big, colorful, theme is given seasonally.
Yea. Looks like a happy place to work? Judging by the outlooks can be deceiving. =P
Anyone of you is interested in working? We still have vacancies!
I'm done chattering.
Need sleep.
Tuesday, 9 June 2009
Will be back.
I'm having some troubles going online via my laptop. Sorry for the M.I.A status for the past few days.
Will be back once I get my laptop fixed.
=)
Will be back once I get my laptop fixed.
=)
Tuesday, 2 June 2009
Jahh..!
I knoww.........
Haven't been updating my blog. I've been busy with work.
Well, not really actually. Just that I've been waking up at 6am every morning, drag myself to the bathroom, have a cold shower before I head to work. This is my schedule for another week long. After this, I'm sunk into rotational shift. I have 12.30pm-9.30pm, 9.30am-6.30pm shifts for 2nd and 3rd week of June. My colls are getting 3pm-12am shifts already, and I'm getting the feeling that I'm getting those shifts soon. But I told myself, if the shifts are gonna be draining my time out, I'll be requesting a permanent shift of 6am-3pm. And at least I have a life after work. And yea, I'm giving myself till the end of June to think about permanent time shifts. And that goes about work.
Other than work... I've been patiently waiting (till my brains are oozing out from my ears) for the date. The date of the month that will legalize and finalize this whole trauma that I'm going through since end of last year. It's the middle of the year now... And I'm literally pulling my hairs out on this. The pain and shit I'm going through.. I don't know how long more I can survive and go through this. Just fucking give me a fucking date that I can actually look forward to. Please. Dammit. I'm waiting to get my life back again on track.
Oh, I need a fucking holiday when all this are settled. Procrastinating on my driving license as well. When I already have enough savings to fork a large sum for my driving license, there's sure to bound on something which I have to keep this on hold again. I'm getting sick of all this unnecessary expenditure. Working my ass off to earn more. And with all this lawyer shit thing I'm spending money on, it's not really helping one bit.
I'm drained to the very last gut. I need more than a miracle.
p/s: I promise of a better, more exciting update on this fucking-ass dead blog on my whines. Sue me.
Haven't been updating my blog. I've been busy with work.
Well, not really actually. Just that I've been waking up at 6am every morning, drag myself to the bathroom, have a cold shower before I head to work. This is my schedule for another week long. After this, I'm sunk into rotational shift. I have 12.30pm-9.30pm, 9.30am-6.30pm shifts for 2nd and 3rd week of June. My colls are getting 3pm-12am shifts already, and I'm getting the feeling that I'm getting those shifts soon. But I told myself, if the shifts are gonna be draining my time out, I'll be requesting a permanent shift of 6am-3pm. And at least I have a life after work. And yea, I'm giving myself till the end of June to think about permanent time shifts. And that goes about work.
Other than work... I've been patiently waiting (till my brains are oozing out from my ears) for the date. The date of the month that will legalize and finalize this whole trauma that I'm going through since end of last year. It's the middle of the year now... And I'm literally pulling my hairs out on this. The pain and shit I'm going through.. I don't know how long more I can survive and go through this. Just fucking give me a fucking date that I can actually look forward to. Please. Dammit. I'm waiting to get my life back again on track.
Oh, I need a fucking holiday when all this are settled. Procrastinating on my driving license as well. When I already have enough savings to fork a large sum for my driving license, there's sure to bound on something which I have to keep this on hold again. I'm getting sick of all this unnecessary expenditure. Working my ass off to earn more. And with all this lawyer shit thing I'm spending money on, it's not really helping one bit.
I'm drained to the very last gut. I need more than a miracle.
p/s: I promise of a better, more exciting update on this fucking-ass dead blog on my whines. Sue me.
Thursday, 21 May 2009
Happy 5th Birthday Princess!!!
*jen sits back and stares into space*
How time flies. Really. It's the 21st of May. A very special day for me to remember. It was 5 years ago when you came into my life. And things have changed ever since.
just a few pics of her when she was smaller. =)
You grow too fast. Stop growing will ya?
I love you dam fucking much. =)
How time flies. Really. It's the 21st of May. A very special day for me to remember. It was 5 years ago when you came into my life. And things have changed ever since.
*********************
HAPPY 5TH BIRTHDAY
******
A-VYS CHAN KHYIO JHIYN
MY BABY GIRL
MY PRINCESS
******
A-VYS CHAN KHYIO JHIYN
MY BABY GIRL
MY PRINCESS
just a few pics of her when she was smaller. =)
You grow too fast. Stop growing will ya?
I love you dam fucking much. =)
Sunday, 17 May 2009
I got TAGGED..! =)
After many years of blogging, I found myself tagged on tag. Yeah.
Thanks to Rodney . Here is my tag of the week!
Thanks to Rodney . Here is my tag of the week!
- Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed? My neck and ears.
- How did you feel when you wake up this morning? Feels like crap.
- Who was the last person/people you took a photo with? My baby girl.
- Would you consider yourself spoilt? No. I spoil myself more than people spoiling me.
- Will you ever donate blood? Yes. But I can't. I'm lack of blood as well. And underweight And not healthy.
- Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex? Yes. In the end, the best friend status went bye-bye.
- Do you want someone to be dead? Oh YESSS...! *whistles.. doo doo doo*
- What does your last text message say? "CONGRATS! You just won yourself a pass for 2 Days of Freedom music festival. Call 1300xxxxxx for collection details, weekdays. 10am-6pm. Passes are non-transferable. (YEH...! =) But I thought of giving it out to someone who wanted to go. Trance/House not my kind of style)
- What are you thinking right now? "Dam long dot com can dieeeee..."
- Do you want someone to be with you right now? Yes. Desperately.
- What was the time you went to bed last night? About 5am.
- Is someone on your mind right now? Yes.
- Who was the last person who text you? The people from the 2 Days of Freedom.
- Tag 10 people.... =)
- Joshua Ong
- Jess Chong (Jess babe)
- Sue Lynn Chia
- Jynn Looi
- Ginny Yap
- Choi Lin
- Kellster
- Junn
- Chuan Guan
- Wen Zi
- Who is #2 having a relationship with? With Khai. (I think they're still together. =x)
- Is #3 a female or male? Female
- If #7 and #1 get together, would it be good? Hoo..... Yaaaa... =)
- What is #1 studying about? I dunno.. He working la... I think. Shit.
- Is #4 single? Nop. She's in a relationship.
- Say something about #2? Loud. Hyperactive. Not afraid of the world. Daring.
- What do you think about #3 and #6 together? Not sure. They do not know each other.
- Describe #9? No ideaaaaaaaa..!!
- What would you do if #6 and #7 fight? CATFIGHT!... I'd just stand back. Buy popcorn and watch the movie!. LOL =p
- Do you like #8? As a friend, yes. Long time friend.
I don't expect anyone to do this tag anyway. =) I just needed something to write about.
Happy reading! Will update on more pics and more interesting stuff. Till then.
Have a good week ahead!
Have a good week ahead!
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Saturday, 16 May 2009
Where Do I Go?
The simplicity of life sometimes do make me wonder how the earth rotates and time flies without waiting. If I could just pause a moment in life, there is so much I can do and just be in linger in the moment I wanted to be in.
But then again, I thought to myself. If there really was a pause button in life that I could just click away, I would never really appreciate life again. I wouldn't look back and remember all the memories because it would just be so easy to turn back time and endeavour in it again whenever I feel like it. But as in life back to the sense of reality, there will never be a pause button no matter how much I wish for it. I could only enjoy the moment, and regain the memories in the future. Sadly, it's not as fantastic as it sounds but it could only make me just learn how to appreciate everything better.
All of a sudden, after being so excited about work/training and shits, why do I still feel that I'm back at square one? Oh! I know. I clearly know why. A sudden call from HIM just destroyed my whole entire day and night. Just one fucking call and it ruined everything. How heartless HIM may sound over the phone, I am and never will be satisfied with the conditions. Just thinking about, what if the situation was the other way round. *sigh*
It's the month of May. And soon, middle of the year is arriving. It has been a long and traumatic 7 months of agonizing waits and procedures. I'm just hoping you would give up. Really. Because either way it is, it's your lost ain't mine. You're just putting yourself blindly into jeopardy.
Come to think of it. When all this ends... Where do I go from here?
I'm pretty much lost. Help?
But then again, I thought to myself. If there really was a pause button in life that I could just click away, I would never really appreciate life again. I wouldn't look back and remember all the memories because it would just be so easy to turn back time and endeavour in it again whenever I feel like it. But as in life back to the sense of reality, there will never be a pause button no matter how much I wish for it. I could only enjoy the moment, and regain the memories in the future. Sadly, it's not as fantastic as it sounds but it could only make me just learn how to appreciate everything better.
All of a sudden, after being so excited about work/training and shits, why do I still feel that I'm back at square one? Oh! I know. I clearly know why. A sudden call from HIM just destroyed my whole entire day and night. Just one fucking call and it ruined everything. How heartless HIM may sound over the phone, I am and never will be satisfied with the conditions. Just thinking about, what if the situation was the other way round. *sigh*
It's the month of May. And soon, middle of the year is arriving. It has been a long and traumatic 7 months of agonizing waits and procedures. I'm just hoping you would give up. Really. Because either way it is, it's your lost ain't mine. You're just putting yourself blindly into jeopardy.
Come to think of it. When all this ends... Where do I go from here?
I'm pretty much lost. Help?
Thursday, 14 May 2009
Work is Fun!
So...
I rather much procrastinated on work and yadaa yadaa. But dammit, I am loving what I'm doing by the days. Seriously. Although I have to painstakingly remember and apply what has been taught and literally killing me... Why do I still enjoy? I guess it must be with the current batch I'm with now and the very easy-going environment.
Basically, today is my 4th day into training. Counting down to 6 more days. Feels like it's going too fast because I'm yet to get the hang of it. Can I extend training? LOL. =P
Best part of my job is, "YOU ARE GETTING PAID TO TALK". (Quote by Nick) *yay...!*
Somehow or rather, I was first getting the impression of people telling me.. "You're so quiet..." Seriously, I'm so not. I talk alot... ALOT. I literally spit onto your face cos' I talk alot. Wtf.
Nah. When I'm at ease with a person, I tend to be a little more in my comfort zone and being myself.
Just wanna say thanks to Linda (poko), Doreen, Scott David, Dennis Chow, Elijah, Cher Ru, Sandra and a few others for making my day a memorable one. Congratulations to us for making into the company and it's been great. I enjoy being with you guys and thank God we're in the same batch. Now, I'm keeping my fingers crossed that we get matching work schedules. Really don't know how I'd survive without you guys. My smoking and lunch gang.
Love ya'll.
Peace out.
=)
I rather much procrastinated on work and yadaa yadaa. But dammit, I am loving what I'm doing by the days. Seriously. Although I have to painstakingly remember and apply what has been taught and literally killing me... Why do I still enjoy? I guess it must be with the current batch I'm with now and the very easy-going environment.
Basically, today is my 4th day into training. Counting down to 6 more days. Feels like it's going too fast because I'm yet to get the hang of it. Can I extend training? LOL. =P
Best part of my job is, "YOU ARE GETTING PAID TO TALK". (Quote by Nick) *yay...!*
Somehow or rather, I was first getting the impression of people telling me.. "You're so quiet..." Seriously, I'm so not. I talk alot... ALOT. I literally spit onto your face cos' I talk alot. Wtf.
Nah. When I'm at ease with a person, I tend to be a little more in my comfort zone and being myself.
Just wanna say thanks to Linda (poko), Doreen, Scott David, Dennis Chow, Elijah, Cher Ru, Sandra and a few others for making my day a memorable one. Congratulations to us for making into the company and it's been great. I enjoy being with you guys and thank God we're in the same batch. Now, I'm keeping my fingers crossed that we get matching work schedules. Really don't know how I'd survive without you guys. My smoking and lunch gang.
Love ya'll.
Peace out.
=)
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