Wednesday, 19 May 2010

One two... Let's Go!

While I sheepishly smile to myself on the thought that "HEY! Another lousy year gone by", everything else goes to green zone. Time still flies and waits for no man. I am grounded with that. Yes. However much I depressed myself since the last week, it flew by with no stop. Even If I had stopped to do something, the minute goes by. And I am grateful for that. Really.

Everyone hears the same old - same old term. One year older one year wiser. And unfortunately, I have never been wiser. I mean, I am a little wiser but I'm still me. How much I hated getting older day after day, seeing my baby girl all grown up has been a wonderful yet a tremendous exciting journey. While she was all small, wrapped in woolly pink and white cloth, there goes the dilemma of choosing the never-ending drama of how to dress your kid up, temper-throwing tantrums, eating habits, schools, education, tuition etc.

Despite all that, it's a heart-pumping experience to see how she grew. While I very much experimented certain things on her like piercing her ears at the tender age of 2, tying her hair in all sorts of patterns... She has never failed to put a smile on my face in between the rage that sometimes she gets me into.

Somehow or rather, I never do see myself as the perfect mum but yes I do want the best of things for her. It's rather difficult for me to see her grow with just a single parent myself but she gets plentiful of love from my family and friends. That I'm thankful for. Sometimes I wonder does she really know what's REALLY going on. I do wonder what goes on in that little mind of hers.

But push aside all the unforeseen and all uneventful matter, she is turning 6! Mummy's girl is a big girl now and paving her way into primary. Ahh. While I thank God that her kindy fees are finally over, primary school should be less expensive. But I fret. School books. Uniforms and all that. No wonder people are tying their tubes. Lol.

I hope for the better.

Saturday, 8 May 2010

Here it comes!

It's that time of year again. Everywhere you go will be promotions for Mothers Day. The many ways of advertising. Banners, colorful signage, stage events, hi-tea buffets, gifts and etc.

So what have you laid out for your mom this year round? I'm just planning to have a quiet day spending it with my daughter and my mom and of course my sis and dad included. Everywhere will be hectic. The malls especially. Can't run away from the norm of it.

Yesterday as I got back home and went to my moms room where my baby girl was out, she saw me and she went "Oh! I forgot......." and she put her hands on her mouth. I asked her "Forgot about what?" She kept quiet and was looking at my mum. I was highly anticipating what has she done. Finally I got to know that she had made me something and her teacher at kindy had told her and the rest of her kindy-mates to only surprise their mothers on the actual day itself. And wa laa! She "kantoi" herself. So mom took her down to retrieve this "thing" she had made for me and she was making sure that I close my eyes. She came back, stood in front of me and said "Happy Mothers Day!" and gave me this printed A4 size paper folded into four mimicking a greeting card proudly showing me the dutiful-ness of the coloring that she did by herself.

Excited not?

Here's to all mothers, soon-to-be mothers, grandmothers...



Saturday, 1 May 2010

I know right?

My friends have been complaining about my dead blog. But on the serious note, I hadn't any moments where I felt like updating or sharing anything. Much to know that everyday has been a cycle recycling itself.

Work has been mundane. Even after my manager from Australia came down purpose was to train me to do more work, it had been like any other day. Stoned. I really am not sure if I'm doing everything too fast. But I seriously couldnt' help it. It seemed like every one I knew is leaving the company. The turnover is so bad till much to my realization the company is really taking a toll on all the seniors there. I admit that there will be no other place like my company who's paying me this much on the job scope that I'm doing right now. I had a friend who was asking me to join her company on much to the same job scope but they were offering a thousand ringgit less. You gotta be effin' kidding me. Sigh.

On the contrary, life/family had been well... up and down. My daughter had given me a shock of my life when the visit to the hospital at midnight had deemed a real impromptu experience. But she's all well and healthy now. Thanks to all the hospital bills, mine and hers. I'm having so much of a headache paying it off bit by bit. I'm thinking of doing a part time job aside my full time right now but I'm gonna die doing it again. Juggling off 3 jobs at one go previously had really taken a toll on everything. And knowing that, I do not wish doing it again. But I'm just hoping for the better. A promotion? A bonus? Another raise? Could help alot.

Lets take a chill pill shall we?