Wednesday, 30 December 2009

Happy 2010... *yadaa yadaa*

Everyone's making plans on what to do on New Years Eve. I've been super mellow this year round and believe me when I say I don't have any fucking plans or ideas.

Resolutions you say? Bah. It's the same old which I never bothered. Really. We just try our best doing it and by the time you know it, you're back in square one. Well, kudos to you if you had made your resolutions.

Happy 2010? I'm not really that happy anyway. I mean, yea I'm happy that another ass-ed up year has gone, but then again... SERIOUSLY?! Once the clock strikes 12am on the eve, morning still comes. You still have to get up with the many routines that you still have to do. It's not like we all got suddenly rich and ohhhhhh the world so peaceful....................................................... *rolls eye*

Sorry to push the button. But wth.

Happy 2010

There, I said it with a BIGGGG smile on my face. =D
I kid you not.

Monday, 28 December 2009


First of all, I would like to apologize for not updating any sooner. It has been busy. Really.

And I would like to wish everyone a very belated Merry Christmas
and to all
December babies a very Happy Birthday

And also I think I would miss updating on New Year's Eve. Wishing everyone of you a
Happy New Year

This year has been a shit-ass year and hopefully with my fingers and toes crossed, 2010 will be a better and joyous one.

So, what did you do for Christmas? Me? Well, I skipped counting down this year. Had a small party at home to celebrate dad's birthday on X'mas eve. And I fell asleep at 11.30pm. So wtf.

Just a handful of my aunts and uncles and cousins on X'mas eve at my place.

Nothing much to shout about. It's been a dead lonely X'mas this time around.
Hoped you guys had a blasted one!!

What else happened lately?

I attended my company's annual dinner. I was pretty much not wanting to go. In the end, I did had some laughs here and there. Some of the entertainment during that night was worth watching although I only did looked forward for the lucky draw because they were giving out the damn Netbook laptop everyone's been eyeing on and the flight tickets. And dammit, don't even mention about that, I didn't even manage to win the smallest item which was voucher. How unlucky. =.=

Since May, most of you know that I've been working in a call center which we're dealing with Jetstar Airlines. I was the everyday-hear-complain-call-once-you-start-work agent on the floor doing inbound calls. After a while, I was immune to it and then I relatively got sick of it. So I applied to join the Admin team. A week later that's around end of November, my area manager has proposed a new task for me. So basically now I'm dealing with Jetstar head office in Australia doing Inflight Services. And basically, in the whole office, I'm the only weird one doing that. Everyday is email, email, email. Type type type. Read read read. Which I find it pretty laidback and less stressful compared to having answering calls and a point of time there is no pause in between. Being in Admin team, well... everyone is at their own pace. We can do whatever we want as long as we of course, finish our work.

Myself - Kate - Foong Leng

Kate has came all the way down to our office from Australia. She's the Jetstar Inflight Co-ordinator and basically was giving me the hands on training on the new task that I was given. Foong Leng acted as my back-up just in case I called in sick or on leaves. * yay * Given her 2 days to train me, her time here in KL was short and briefed. And she has been nothing but helpful and friendly all the way. And oh, the back is a view of less than 1/4 quarter of our office on the 16th floor.

But the Admin team has finally moved down to 7th floor because the 16th floor couldn't accommodate the many newbies that joined the company.

And mind you, the 16th floor is still the best place to work in. Take a look at photo and compare the liveliness. 7th floor is................ quiet. There. If I'm not mistaken, there are less than 20 people on 7th floor and there is always more than 60 people up in 16th floor.

My chosen table! Finally, my own privacy. I need not have to share computer and I need not having to come to work and start looking for an empty table to sit. Why this table? It's next to the window which I always have plentiful of sunrays shining in when I come to work, there's no one next to me and there is a post wall at the back. =D Sorry, table messy. I haven't got the time to decorate my table yet. So it's empty.

Come to think of it... I miss going to work.


Sunday, 29 November 2009

Another day.

Wishing my MUM a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY. And wishing my MUM again and my DAD a very Happy Anniversary!

And to those whom I missed...

Wishing you a very Happy Happy Happy Birthday!


Hope you had a great one!

Sunday, 22 November 2009


No stepping on the brakes this time round. It's back to real work tomorrow and it's only hours away. To all my readers out there, I will try to update every now and then but do stick around okay? It's going to be a real busy-busy schedule for me.

Oh, if you have any ideas on a logo and a name for me, do leave me your suggestion and ideas in the comment?

Will be back soon!

Thursday, 19 November 2009

I... Seriously Can't Get Enough of This!

I can go on all day looking at funny craps like this. And sometimes I wished my brain was a fuck-tard so I can actually come up with ingenius ideas such as this. Enjoy!

And I get this like 99.9% of the time... KNS.

And I fucking love this... doesn't it make you wonder now??? *rofl*

And this is just one lame sucker...

Monday, 16 November 2009

Truth Awakens

The first thing I see in the morning is a girl staring back at me from the mirror in an over-sized tee, droopy eyes, out-of-bed messed up hair, thinking to herself... "Shit. I look this bad every morning". Movies are overrated with morning riser people who look and smile to themselves to the mirror and say "Good morning sunshine! It's a great day today!". And why do I not have that in the morning. I dread going to sleep. I just can't seem to be able to doze off. And when I do, I wake up and cursing to myself that I wished I was never woken up in such abrupt manner.

What happen to the happily ever after shit? Truth is there is never happy ever after. That only comes to people in Disney cartoon movies. And did you realize? 3/4 of the movies with real actors and actresses have episodes after a first movie. For example, The Fast & The Furious. Then you have the continuation of Fast & Furious. Then you have Harry Potter movies which you have Harry Potter & The Sorcerer's stone. Chamber of Secrets. Prisoner of Azkaban. Goblet of Fire. Order of the Phoenix and the recent Half Blood Prince. As we go along movies such as that, we can watch/read about the continuation of life after that on what happens and etc. What about movies on cartoons and such. There is probability of the ratio of 1:10 that has a part 1 and 2. But do you see the happily ever after like Cinderella, Snow White & the Seven Dwarfs and etc has part 1 and 2? What happens AFTER the poor dame has found her super-magical-prince charming-riding on a horse crap? They get married in the end of the movie and then? I wanna know what's after that. Did they have kids? Do they have misunderstandings and arguments?

Truth is growing up watching bull movies like that and having that a part in our lives really has given the misinterpretation and perceptions. Okay okay, it's only a movie, a story for entertainment. But still, we have this mindset of things such as that. And when in real life, we deal in situations.. We can't really handle them. People perceive things in a norm of ways we cannot imagine.

But really, if happily ever after do exist, please put me in the list. I would definitely like that alot.

Truth hurts like all the time. Do people really mean what they say? I'm not sure about that. But what I know is, we only listen to what we want to hear. Nice things for sure. Who doesn't? But when we get a smackdown, we hate the person who says all the crap about you. And the next you know, you feel unworthy of yourself and whatever confidence you have was simply and easily wiped out away.

We will never get exactly what we want. In many general terms I would say. Life in this moment is nothing but just give and take, having to settle what is better and easier both between people. We may not like what's being said or done but there is nothing we can do about it. Everybody is an individual. Everybody want what's best for themselves and I don't blame them. But what we can do to make a happier day is when everybody learns to communicate better, seeing everything from a bigger picture and hopes for the best.

Everyday as the time goes by, I learn a little of everything. When we are old and in our 50's or 60's, we will still keep learning as long as our heart is still beating.

The truth may not be the best, but it beats having fakers to live by.

And that's the truth.

Monday, 2 November 2009

Baby Girl - All Grown UP!

5 years of wonders. Seeing you growing up bit by bit through the days, weeks, months and years. It has been nothing but precious and blessed moments. You came into my life in such a short and swift time. 9 months of you inside my womb was too short the amount of time for bond. Listening to your heartbeat in me and the plentiful of kicks and punches, it was the most extraordinary experience one can ever have.

When it was time for you to come and venture in this world which is full of rocky pathways, lies, deceit, cons, the many adventures you will be in, I felt my hands shook. Because I know I can never pave the way for you all the way. There will be a day when you will say "Mummy, It's time to let go". It would be like the entire universe crashing down on me. But I will look back in time and know that I've tried my best. There would never be perfect.

5 years has gone by too quickly. And when I reminisce on the photos, tears will be in my eyes. The innocent little eyes. You had nothing to worry because everything was only fun and play. But just hold on tight, it will be a roller-coaster ride. =)

A dedication to you...

A-Vys Chan Khyio Jhyin


The many faces of a child. Be it silly or not, they always seem so cute. Imagine me doing it. It'll be like... WTF?!



So, I wish to thank you for coming into my life. I will hold your hands till the day I die.




Sunday, 1 November 2009

I want a kicking-ass name!

Greetings earthlings! Oh! Happy Halloween. So it's a day late. So what?

Anywayyyyyyyyy... Back to the topic. Have you ever come across of someone whom you know is ever-changing their Christian/English name? Alright. I cannot doubt the fact that I'm living here in Malaysia. Multi-racial of Chinese, Malay and Indians and all other sorts of mixture.

But in general, in Malaysia... Regardless of what race you are, everybody knows how a Chinese name goes.

Examples... ( if so happens you saw your name here, I'm typing it down as to what came across my mind with no intentions)

Like... my name. Chung Jen Ai. Or... Lim Ah Tong. Chan Kwan Meng. Tan Li Shen and etc.

This are how typical Chinese name goes. Their last name(surname) and given name. Some of us have the opportunity to have Christian/English names like Peter Lim Ah Tong or Michael Chan Kwan Meng. But some of us are just left with none. Like mine.

Okay, honestly... When I was back in primary school, I have always envied my peers for having Christian/English names. And I'll go "Is it in the I.C arrr? Yerrr... So lucky... I don't have!" But now, having it or not well, it doesn't annoy nor does it bothers me anymore.

I'm alright with people who has given a name for themselves or sometimes the Godparents gives them the Christian/English name and it's not written in the I.C.

But I just can't stand those who makes-up some fancy-ass name and changed them every now and then!

Real life situation. I have his friend. I won't say the name nor will I say it is a female or male. This friend whom I knew for many years and it's really obvious he/she has just the Chinese name on the I.C. Okay, fine. So he/she has came up with this nice Christian/English and would like to be called that way. Old friends, new friends, we have been calling him/her the name that was proposed. 2 months down the road, for all you know, he/she has decided that the name was boring and common so therefore has changed it. So we all knew him/her by the "NEW" name. Yadaa yadaa, point accepted.

Half a year later, changes... yet again. And oh, this time round he/she decided not to blab out to us personally. And I found out, he/she has directly changed it in the Facebook. (Now I know why I couldn't find it) =.=

It's not much of a big deal. But why go through the ordeal of changing it over and over again? I don't get it. It's either you hate your birth given name or you're just too bored. Let me tell you, there are 26 letters in the alphabet list from A-Z. Geniuses have came up with thousands and thousands of different names. Common names to names we have never came across on. There are names out there we will come across one day and find it nice. And we name ourselves after that, and the change will be neverending because we will ALWAYS find something that we'd like.

Well, I have no fucking idea on why I had to just rant about this. But it's kinda creeping up on me and irritates the hell out of me. Because it's just not 1 person I know. There are more than 10 people in my Facebook list whom I personally know who does that and whenever I do the monthly cycle of removing "unknown friends", I would "accidently" delete them off. Why? Because you never stick to your own bloody name. And when I see a name which doesn't ring a bell... BYE BYE!

p/s: I don't mind the occasional changed from using your own name to a nickname like some of my other friends do. But this are not bloody nicknames! It's a little too fucking obvious right? Even a dumb donkey... Wait... Okay, I rephrase, even a dumb-ass person can differentiate. =.=

Monday, 26 October 2009

What Do You Know?

It's that kick-ass Monday blues again.

Toast to another brand new week on the same old October month. And I want to hear from you.

I'm in the midst of planning of revamping my site again. Don't you think the color white is boring?

What do you like to read about? And what do you wish to read about in my blog?

Inspire me will ya?

Leave your comments, suggestions, ideas and what-nots.

Would love to hear from all of my readers!!

p/s : I'm targeting at least 30 comments and more.


Thursday, 22 October 2009

I Love this kinda shit!

When I'm down and need a laugh or a snicker on my face, this shit never fails to put that grin out.


*photo courtesy of LOLcat and Google*

Monday, 19 October 2009


Just when I thought everything was for the better. The bits and pieces of every problems comes into place, forming a big puzzle in between and for all you know, it's back to square 1 where I first started.

Some say I need to chillout more. Some say I need to relax. Some say I need a person who I can confide in. The only person who I can confide in has already has so much to bear. With me in it, everything will crumble and fall to the ground. And I have spend so much time building the foundation of it. And nothing will come between that. Some say I need to just share it out. If this continues, I might have to spend the rest of my days being an insomniac and popping on anti-depressant pills. Which I'm definitely not wanting to.

Maybe I need to find something that would pull my mind of this. Something I like to do to re-focus on everything else. Something I can do to stabilize my emotions again. I'm starting to think that my mind has full control over my body right now and I need to take back that control.

I just want to skip the pages. People say, "What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger". I'm beginning to mock that sentence. "What doesn't kill you will only kill you slowly".

Time. Where are you? Hurry up and get it done please? I'm about to give up.

Saturday, 10 October 2009

Mama need some wink of sleep!

I can't sleep. For the past few months, I have been having so much difficulty to just fall asleep. I am drained out. Mentally, physically and emotionally tired. I wished to be able to come back home, lie on the bed and just doze off. I miss having to just close my eyes and sleep. Now, I practically roll around the bed for more than 2 hours first, sleep and waking up only to find out that I just doze off for 5 minutes. And having to go through the 2 hours dilemma to sleep again just annoys me. Before you know it, it's time to get up to go to work. And I'll start to sulk, kicks around because I'm just so damn tired, slowly make my way to the toilet, sit on the toilet bowl and close my eyes and sleep! My sleeping timing is all out. Sheesh. And when I reach to the office, I feel bloody pissed when answering calls. When the clock strikes 12pm in the afternoon, then I'd feel bloody awake all day till 2am-3am in the morning. There goes my sleeping routine. And I'd thought having my permanent shift would have helped!


Thank God for off day tomorrow. Because it's 2.30am now and I'm blogging for shits. And knowing that I'd sleep right up till the 1pm fucking hot sun rays tanning my bottom. I am rudely awaken with noises from the cars honking outside, bloody dogs barking, the sometimes siren wailing, and the screams and shouts from my daughter downstairs. Blissful not?

OH! and my laptop is finally free from the ever so frequent 5 seconds interval of message alert popping up prompting me to download shits to remove the spyware/trojan fuck. I took the initiative to save myself from taking out any money to get my laptop reformatted by doing it all by myself and of course with a help from a friend who is currently waaaaaaaaaaay over at Australia. I feel so at ease now that my laptop is running faster, starts up faster and basically not spamming people's MSN with virus messages. *claps hand*

Well, better go and get some sleep now. 2.36am. Sigh. I'm only gon' doze off at 4am. WTF. And tomorrow is my baby girl's 2nd week of drums lesson! I asked her a very random question today...

Me : So... What did your drums teacher taught you?
My daughter : PLAY DRUMS LA!
Me : Zzzz... WTf.?!




Wednesday, 7 October 2009

I Need...

Is enough ever enough? Enough is never enough. That statement sums it all. We all will never have what it's enough. We can never get enough food. Much so to say you get full and stop eating and practically eat again after a few hours. We can never get enough of clothings. We wear it once and we always have to wear something new. We can never get enough of money as everything in this world needs money to buy something from. Even the most nutrients we need for our body in order to survive, we have to use money to buy.

But a few examples of that are mainly physical things/items that we can see, smell, touch, hear and feel. But what about the emotional needs? Things that we cannot obtain by buying it. Love, care, patience, understanding and etc.

This are things we have to get for ourselves. But how does one gets it? I have not the slightest idea but we do feel it, don't we?

Love? It hurts. 95% of the time. Now that's an understatement. I have know a few people who always says "Don't have gf/bf so difficult. When already have, also so difficult". So, you tell me. Is there ever enough? People take whats for granted, lost it and regrets. But why must we humans have this mindset thinking?

Care? We all do care for one another. Not just towards another human being. Towards nature. Towards their own belonging and so on. But do we really care for it? I saw this bloke the other day, he was one of those "volunteer" participants who opted to do their part for recycling. Passing around leaflets to promote and to encourage the passer-bys to join in. I think that is a great effort. But lo and behold! Coincidently the next minute (while I was still walking around the corner), he finished drinking his can of Coca Cola, walks towards the colored bins. Common ones we see is bins for papers, plastics, glass and aluminium. So where does he throws his can of Coca Cola in? Into the bins for the papers. Recycling? Riiiigggghhhhttt!!!

Patience and understanding? I do not have anything to say about that. I'm just too lazy.

What more in this world do we want? I'm lucky to have grew up in an above average family. But I still do take things for granted. Most of the time I practically get what I want. Regardless of asking my parents to buy for it or taking my own money out to get it. Could we compare to a less fortunate family? Out of randomness, I'm just typing things I can think of on what sorts of things I already have. Laptop, set of television and a dvd player in my room, king size bed, psp, digital camera, mobile phone, sufficient amount of clothings for casual to fancy dinners, mp3 player, air-conditioned room, a drum set, acoustic guitar, a stable job.

Compared to a less fortunate family. They strive on candle-burning, oil lamp for light. Don't even mention about air-conditioning, they don't even have a ceiling fan. Mp3 player? More like old school radio that they still have to tune to get a frequency unlike radio's nowadays, just press a button, and it auto sets itself. Mobile phone? They are way to lucky if they even have one. Laptop? They don't even have a desktop computer what more internet lines. King sized bed? More like sleeping on a hard wooden floor with just a 1 cm of blanket thickness. Psp? More like playing hopscotch by drawing the lines on the floor.

I'm not saying that I'm rich. Don't get me wrong. But I do think that I am way more lucky to some other folks out there and yet I demand for more. Can we really appreciate things that are given to us?

So to summarized everything up again.

Is enough ever enough for you?

P/s: Hearing your feedbacks would be great. Leave a comment if you have something to say if not just ignore this post, click on the "X" button and leave.

Have a good night.

Tuesday, 6 October 2009

So Fragile

There will be no more "Hello".
We never got to say "Goodbye".

Missing you my friend.

xxx R. I. P

Thursday, 1 October 2009

Life, a speck of dust?

I went to work as usual today. Starting the day unmotivated. Much towards the afternoon, I was just basically going through for the sake of working. As 4pm passes by, one by one, the office gets quieter. Most of my colleagues are on their way back home by then. I went down to the usual 4th floor for a quick smoke say around 6pm or so. I was tired and sleepy.

Suddenly, around 6.15pm. I felt dizzy. I looked around and the rest of my colleagues who are still in the office was still on call and yakking away. So I closed my eyes for a bit. When I open my eyes again, the dizziness was getting worse. I looked at my computer screen and it went left and right. I hang on to my desk as I thought I was about to faint. One of my colleague who was sitting on the other side of the cubicle, got up, stared at me and said, "Did you felt that?!".

That's what hit me. We're all up on the 16th floor of our office building and all of us felt the tremor. The whole building actually shook. Googled to check on the news, and it spread like wildfire.

An earthquake took its ugly rear and hits on Padang, Indonesia this time. A tsunami alert has been issued as the earthquake measured up to 7.9 on the richter scale. At the moment, this is the most recent news and there has been no contact or communication taken place.

Previously, the tsunami disaster back in 2004 has killed more than 220,000 people including men, women and childrens. The richter scale back then was measuring up to 9.3.

I just googled a while ago, back in 2004, there were predictions of a Tsunami will happen on the July 22 2009. Urban legend? Or is it a disaster waiting to happen? Predictions can never be accurate. We have long passed July 09. It's the end of Sept 09 already. Could this be the one?

These are photo's from the previous Tsunami 2004.

Imagine you were taking a long and relaxing dip in the swimming pool and that happens.
Would you even have half that second to run to save your life?

Mother nature's best yet disastrous waves.
With that high amount volume of water and pressure, everything was wiped out.

This is a photo taken of before and after. It was filled with greenery trees.
And now what is left is mud, sand and lifeless surrounding.

It was once surrounded with calm waters... and now?

The aftermath of it.
Everything has been destroyed.

Don't say more about broken homes and buildings. There were many broken hearts as well. After the tidal waves has came to its rest, bodies after bodies were piled up like dead fishes in the sea. What caught my eyes on this photo was, how devastated their families would be.

Were their bodies given back to their family so that they can be put to rest?

How long have they been lying there lifeless?

Were they even identified?

What has to become our world? War. Flood. Earthquake. Volcanic disruptions. Hurricane. Tornados. Fire.

Can all this be controlled? Can we stop it?

Fact is, we can't.