Jahh..!

I knoww.........

Haven't been updating my blog. I've been busy with work.

Well, not really actually. Just that I've been waking up at 6am every morning, drag myself to the bathroom, have a cold shower before I head to work. This is my schedule for another week long. After this, I'm sunk into rotational shift. I have 12.30pm-9.30pm, 9.30am-6.30pm shifts for 2nd and 3rd week of June. My colls are getting 3pm-12am shifts already, and I'm getting the feeling that I'm getting those shifts soon. But I told myself, if the shifts are gonna be draining my time out, I'll be requesting a permanent shift of 6am-3pm. And at least I have a life after work. And yea, I'm giving myself till the end of June to think about permanent time shifts. And that goes about work.

Other than work... I've been patiently waiting (till my brains are oozing out from my ears) for the date. The date of the month that will legalize and finalize this whole trauma that I'm going through since end of last year. It's the middle of the year now... And I'm literally pulling my hairs out on this. The pain and shit I'm going through.. I don't know how long more I can survive and go through this. Just fucking give me a fucking date that I can actually look forward to. Please. Dammit. I'm waiting to get my life back again on track.

Oh, I need a fucking holiday when all this are settled. Procrastinating on my driving license as well. When I already have enough savings to fork a large sum for my driving license, there's sure to bound on something which I have to keep this on hold again. I'm getting sick of all this unnecessary expenditure. Working my ass off to earn more. And with all this lawyer shit thing I'm spending money on, it's not really helping one bit.

I'm drained to the very last gut. I need more than a miracle.

p/s: I promise of a better, more exciting update on this fucking-ass dead blog on my whines. Sue me.